friday night.

wonderful is it ? Friday night and was home alone. well not all alone.
watched Sex in the City and boy did i learn some stuff there. hmm, they have good advice along with some pondering thoughts. it wasn't that bad. had me some sushi at NIKONIKO(: [emily NIKO(:] inside joke. but before that i got a haircut]: im prudy sad about that. it might not look any different, but my hair is up to my sholders now. my long luishous hair gone. this friday wasn't at all that exciting. & with the week bringing rain and more sadness, hope i can get pass it.

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it's funny how someone can say that they love you & then the next thing you know they are like talking about "THIS" ?! i mean be for real. & let things go. i don't understand why you don't know what: let the past go means. i've apologized & apologized, what else can i do ?! i can't turn back time and redo things. i wish i could have. but we just cant. you think that you'll figure this out but your wrong. these kind of things just doesn't work. that's why i begged and begged not to do it. but if it what makes you happy. then i'm all in. ideally, we all know how this will go down, but don't assume. this will be tough, i depended on you way to mucho. does this mean its back to the old ways ? i just hope that this time we'll be the "luck ones" and make it through this. but in my eyes, the odds seem really low..

..<3



oh & dearest emily. you blog cause i say so<3[;

grounded much ?

so this weekend is almost oveer ! yay. went pretty fast actually. glade about that well all was said and done already. just missing these 2 girlies. hopefully we can finally hangout all together again! since like last month];