day 2.

survived another day./: its weird, everytime i close
my eyes i cant get the image out of my head.it scares
me all the time./: i really wish that soon this thing
i feel will soon be over.i missed another day of
hangingout.and this time with my JOYBABBY.!
i was supposed to go and eat yogurt with heer,
and talk about our problems.and i missed it./: today
i learned something that i KNOW is all my fault,
but he claims that it isnt.and i know that it is.]: OH.
and Emily made me unprivite my peecture.-__-.
but whatevers.i really hope that tomorrow i can
go out.i really want to hangout with him, before
the break ends.AND i want to go out on Saturday./:
man.i had everything planned out and i cant do sheit.
and this sucks balls.i honestly think that i now am a
shame to my mommy and daddy.my mom wont
talk to me unless i talk to her first.and im so scared.
it feels like im an unwanted person in this family
now.ive though about running away.but i dont know
where to go oor how to start./: well maybe tomorrow
will be the day shell let me go out.just gotta wish.

-SaxxieOUT. ![;