New Year Eve!

Well I havn't really posted a lot this year and it just flew by me like a bird! Before this year ends I want to give thanks to all that it brought me. The ups and downs, sadness, happy, and everything thing. I guess this year was alright, I felt like just yesterday it was the day that I told you too go away... And somehow somewhere "we" began again. And while the new year comes along I have no idea what it will bring to me and to us. I hope that I can fully figure out what I want and all that good stuff. This year is time to just " go with the flow " and just live for once. I'm done with all the other crap ! 2011 be a good one<3

"Tis' the Season to be Jolly"

How ironic it must be that this month is the time to be happy and full of cheer, but sadly for me it's the compelete opposite. I'm in no need to be happy right now there's nothing that is TOO be happy for. Maybe I should just sit and let things just fall into place but how are things gonna get done if I don't do anything ? I wish that I could have someone to make my desions but what kind of life would I be living ? This time I have no idea what to do, I'm a stuck pond.





P.S It's our day<3

"Everything happens for the BEST."


So let's let life take it's course. If were not meant to be, then that's it. If your still here after all this, then let's continue. But don't expect what you want, because nothing will ever go as plan. Everyone is filled with all these stories, tales, myths, and all of that; sadly it may not always go the way you want. But at least you got hope ? Everything will fall into place one day. In this universe people shouldn't care what other people say, but our minds just won't let us do that. When we go out // shop we have someone there to ask if "this looks good on me ? " or " should I buy this ? " I mean it's nice to have the company, however your depending on how others look at you. We go along with the latest fashion, get the newest things, and wear what everyone else is wearing. Why follow the crowd when you can start your own trend ? What you like might be different from someone else; WHO CARES ! You might think you dress good or has the best clothes but everyone is different. So what does it matter if the celebs are wearing the new fashion, doesn't mean you have too. There's a reason why you dress like this or you think this way, that doesn't imply you must change yourself to "fit in." I guess my point is that everything does happen for the best, and it doesn't matter if your different it just makes you more "original." I know I think like this too, but I'm trying to not to be ! Well see how that goes.


I'd like to give a shout out to all the FAKERS, be yourself...

Take it like a Man.

Why I still care, I will never know. I guess I'm insane in the membrane, for I still can't get over it after all this time. Life's a bitch, it is.

" Never let the fear of striking out keep you from playing the game."

Haven't been writing since like a month, I guess it's because school has taken so much of my life right now. But I'm still managing with all of this chaos. I don't know a lot of things have been going through my mind right now. For 2 days I just sat in my room and weeped, but I don't know why. I just did... hopefully mother nature is coming but right now it isn't. I want to be like Newton, having nothing on my mind but problems. No thought about boys or anything. Hmm, wouldn't that be nice. Well as of right now I can't do that.


This song is like the story of my life... for right now I hope.


p.s This song is by Bruno Mars.

" It comes when we need peace, quiet and calm in our lives. "

I guess I'm not at peace just yet.

Feast of Love.

" God created humans: The Greeks were bored so they decided it would be fun to create Love. Then they realized it can't happen with out Happiness. Soon they got bored again and that's when they created Hate and Melancholy. "


Everything in this world goes in a circulation.
- Born, Live, Die.
- Wake up, Eat/Work, Sleep and repeat.
- Problem, Mad, Forgive, and repeat.
- Find someone, Love, Get heart broken, and repeat.
But when will the cycle of having your heart broken really have a stop ? You'll never know until someone finds it. I'm still mad that I couldn't get his book, seriously I think that I can do a way better job than you can. But I guess it's just one more of life's cycle. Trying to be a better person is going to be a tough one, but I'm ready for the challenge.

For now♥

Enough is Enough.

It hurts me to say this but can you just stop. Please, havn't you gone through enought to screw it in your head ! I mean having someone to come up to me and tell me what I already know is so not cool, and you pick "that" guy. Sheesh you must be on crack. I thought that this stuff would be over by now, but I guess I was wrong. I'm terribly sorry for I guess ingnoring you... but it's what I have to do for myself. Why can't we just be friends ? When will this ever end...


But on another thought, I'm sorry to Julianna. I ♥ you, and i'll keep you posted on everything.


"Just keep positive."

Self Thinking.

I have a feeling that none really reads this anymore, and I'm just writing towards myself. But I guess I will never know, so I'm just still gonna say what I want(:

Well this week started off really good, I finally got some fun that I've been wanting for a while. Read something yesterday night that really ruined my day but what people say don't really matter to me at least. Heard something that was like " How are you ever going to become your own person, if you keep on going by what people want ? " Made me think about stuff. Hmm. School is okayish, could be better. Just want things to go good. Well til later♥

It suggests that being fully human means not denying one’s human nature. By indulging in dream, imagination, beauty, and passion, one accesses a world that is more magically transcendent.

Don't be "that" guy.

Wake up, get ready, school, go home, do homework, eat, sleep, and repeat. That's everyday for me nothing really exciting has happened that far. But hopefully something will, well something has kinda happened. I mean school barely started yet ! Had a rendez vous avec a copain at school, not going to lie it was kind of weird. But it's not weird unless you make it weird... I've been on top of my game lately ! Proud to say. I'm just waiting for something to take place.


♥

your a fake.

Fail.

Well the 30 day challange was a compelet disaster ! Oh well, I was just to busy to do it so maybe another time I'll do it. haha. School started and I'm sick of it already ! My classes are okay but I don't have class with the people I want. Hope this year goes smooth.

Day 06- A picture that inspires you.




Everything Does.

Day o5- A picture of your morning.


Didn't wake up til like 1ish. Slept at 4 last night)x

Day 04- A picture of where you went today." The happiest place on Earth. "- Not really.
I wanted to do this yesterday but I was just to tired.

Day 03- A picture of what you did today.
First went out to go eat PHO.


Then went shopping<3

Day 02- A picture of what you wore today.


Staying home the whole day today. My fave anchor tanktop with shorts.

Day 01- A picture of yourself.


Took it last night at 12. Stayed up and ate some cake for my brother's birtday!<3

let's try this.

I'm sick of all my post being about a guy or something like depressing. There's nothing I can do so why complain about it now! I still have a lot of time to redeem myself on this category. So instead let's do some picture time (: This will end up my summer fest! I'll start it tomorrow!

Day 01- A picture of yourself

Day 02 - A picture of what you wore today

Day 03 - A picture of what you did today

Day 04 - A picture of where you went today

Day 05 - A picture of your morning

Day 06 - A picture that inspires you

Day 07 - A picture that makes you cry

Day 08 - A picture of yourself

Day 09 - A picture of what you had for lunch

Day 10 - A picture of what you like to do

Day 11 - A picture of your favorite drink

Day 12 - A picture of your favorite food

Day 13 - A picture of your friends

Day 14 - A picture of your favorite teacher(s)

Day 15 - A picture of yourself

Day 16 - A picture of your dream cell phone

Day 17 - A picture of your mp3 player

Day 18 - A picture of your room

Day 19 - A picture of your favorite musical instrument(s)

Day 20 - A picture of where you want to honeymoon

Day 21 - A picture that makes you think of your loved one

Day 22 - A picture of yourself

Day 23 - A picture that describes your life

Day 24 - A picture of what you did today

Day 25 - A picture that you edited

Day 26 - A picture that makes you angry

Day 27 - A picture of you more than 10 years ago

Day 28 - A picture of what you wore today

Day 29 - A picture of yourself

Day 30 - A picture of you and your best friend

Untitled.

Well here goes nothing; why is it that I cannot have the one thing that I most desire ? I mean let us have a recall.. I now have 2 "people" who think that like yeah and both are alike. Ohwells, it was their fault. But why is it so hard to let go ? I'm pretty sure right now that I don't even matter to you. It's okay I guess. While looking throught my old mail I happened to reread one and my golly was it frighting. Made me wonder whether or not anything was really real. Or was it just my imganation ? I'm glad what happened, happened but I just hoped for another outcome of it all. Right now I'm in maze in which there's no way out. Seems like I keep making the wrong turns and winding up at the same place I started from. Once I reach this gateway will this mind twister finally end ? So many questions and such little answers. Will my night and shining armor come and rescue me from this on going maze ? Or will I just keep making these wrong turns until I finally solve it for myself ?



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i have nothing else to say.

Why is it that even if I'm good, I still can't get what I want ?

Lets end this chaper once and for all.

Okay. So I finally got what I needed, it was as I expected all along. But I guess I didn't want to believe it until I actually heard it. LA, was right and so were all the others. Well there really isn't anything for me to do about it. I'm not at all that crazy about what happened, it's just a whatever moment. On the other hand, you deleted me ! Thanks a lot. I have no idea why ? If you do that mine as well delete my number too, so you won't have the need to call me late at night when I'm trying to sleep and have school the next day... ohwells. I really do understand that you will change, be better, and you need me. But I just don't want it, okay. Except the fact that "we" can't be again. And as for the "love of your life" your kidding me. I'm sorry I don't feel the same, but take the truth. I am honestly out of ideas, I don't know what to do anymore, I don't know what I should do now, or what I should be doing. Just leave me alone, so I can fix myself before I try and fix this again.


p.s. I won't be going. So have fun if you do.

♥

today's topic : loneliness.

Even with all the friends in the world, there's a time when you will always feel lonely. There will never be a time when you don't. We think that we can fill that empty space with friends, family, pets, and other stuff. But reality is we just can't. So I guess I have to face the fact that I'm going to be alone for a while, and I need to stop thinking about you and everything. Being alone isn't that bad but I think I can do it. Finally I must face my fear of being alone. Everyone does it, everyday maybe and I can't even go a few days ? This will help me to conquer what I've been trying to avoid all my breathing days. On another topic : you added me, and that was it. Nothing else ? Not even a hi or how you been ? Damn am I messed up. Or are you just messed up ? What I need is closure, but apparently I can't have that with you. All day long my mind is filled with memories, but at the same time it's blank. I don't have a "plan" this time guys. This is a whole new experience for me. Although, I have to keep thriving.